Tell Him How You Really Feel...

Sometimes we just have to tell God how we really feel. So many times, in an effort to be holy, we hide our true feelings from God. We don't want to complain. We don't want to cuss or say things that we know are against truth. We don't want to verbalize the lies going through our heads.

If we did those things to our friends, family, or neighbors, it would be gossip, strife, complaining, murmuring, etc. However, trying to hide our feelings from God is futile. He already knows them anyway. He already knows the thoughts in our hearts. He already knows the questions we have. He is not a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but in all points, He was tempted as we are; He knows how we feel.

In the Psalms, David poured out his heart to God. He told God the truth about what he was thinking and feeling.

The prophet Habakkuk was real with God about the injustice around him. He was honest with God about the skewed injustices happening around him.

Jeremiah did the same thing. So did Moses. These guys did not try to hide from God how they really felt in the name of holiness.

Now, they didn't go around complaining to people. That's a different story. They didn't "vent" to their neighbors. But, they were honest with God about how they really felt. They asked God those tough questions, "Why did you let this happen?" "Where are you?" "Are you going to do anything about it?"

Asking God those questions on a personal level is not blasphemy. It's honest. We all have those questions, and if we are not honest about it, it allows a wall to be built in our hearts against God. We can ignore those questions until we are blue in the face, but they will never go away until we lower the wall, and let God come into that place of confusion, anger, and mistrust.

Once we let Him into that place, He can bring healing and restore our trust. Then, we can go to a deeper level of intimacy with Him. But we have to let Him. We have to be honest with God.

When you find those questions coming up, get out a piece of paper and tell God how you really feel. Be honest with Him. It won't be pretty, but in the long run, it will open your heart to Him in a deeper way and give Him permission to come into those places of distrust and anger. It will allow for Him to show His love to you in an even deeper way. He knows anyway, but He is waiting for you to open your heart to Him.